Well as of a few days ago we are going to be just friends until he has everything sorted out. If you don't know what's going on let me give you a recap. His ex-fiance is driving crazy and it literally made him sick. So now that that is semi taken care of he's got to deal with his commitment issues. And he's working through them now. Than he can date me. But here's the big news!!! He has decided that he wants to be a man of the cloth, non-denominational. I'm really proud of him. He's actually going to start going to church again. I met his pastor and he's actually a really nice guy. So nice that I might even consider going to to church with him on a regular basis. I say a regular basis because I'm going on Sunday, I just don't know how often I'll go afterwards.

Miss Ataxia: Long night at the ER

Well I went over to his house yesterday before work. He wasn't feeling all that great. So we just chilled and I blended my first oils! But than it turned bad. He ended up going to the ER, we didn't get out of there till a little after 2:30. Which sucked cause we were both tired to the point that I would have slept in the car. If only my phone hadn't died while we were there otherwise I would have. He's doing better. Dehydrated to the point he really should just have a drip all day, but atleast he looks better. Not to mention he's in a better mood. He needs rest. Lots of it.

We met a girl at Heritage that I feel like we were supposed to meet. She helped him with a few things and me as well. She came from my coast even though she's from this hell hole. It was important for us to meet her.

Anyways, I'm going to go and lay down. Even though I know no one reads this.

Miss Ataxia: Freakin' Finally

He's come to the conclusion that she never cared about him. I've known this since he started talking about her. He's finally realizing that perhaps he shouldn't have to change who he is in order to keep the woman that he once loved. He stopped practicing for her, he gave up so much. 

N0w he's practicing again and he's really happy. Thats all I want. For him to be happy, even if he doesn't end up being mine.

Miss Ataxia: Going Crazy

He makes me want to scream. I understand that he wants to concentrate on our friendship, I really really do. But the fact that he's going to put out romantic friendship, our seeing each other on hold is what pisses me off. I understand that he wants to work through the issues he has to deal with due to his ex I get it. I have my own that I have to deal with. But I know that I want him, so I'm willing to wait. I just hate how he's flipping on what he wants.


I feel like crying.

MIss Ataxia: Goin' Girly

Well update. Jess-jess as he is now referred to by my friends is showing me the path through Wicca/paganism. I'm excited by it. I've been interested in it since I was kid, read books, and seriously tried to practice. But it's hard to do when you're alone and you don't have someone showing you the way. Now I do. 

I've got so many things I have to get done for the lessons. I'm crashing out at his place again, there isn't going to be anyone else to there. Me and him. And in a few minutes hopefully, I'm going to take Weed to go and get her nails done for prom. I'm excited. Figured it was something that me and her can go and do, especially since she's never had them done before. 

Anyways, Life sucks on the east coast. Wish my westie friends were here. But I'm glad that they aren't, too much to suck in. I'm out. Stay sane.

Miss Ataxia: Missing her boy

Well I tried to reach out to Johnny, he pretty much blew me off. I just feel annoyed by it. Oh well.

I haven't seen my boy in days and I feel sad by it. But at the same time I know why I haven't seen him so it makes it ok. He's got to make the moneys so he can get his own place and go back to school. I'm so proud of him. Hopefully I can see him today.

Miss Ataxia: SLUMBER PARTY

Well my boy's back in town after being gone for a couple of days on some emergency. Can't say I really care about the emergency, I'm just glad he's back. I rather missed him. So I'm going to go and crash at his place tonight and spend the day with him tomorrow. It's going to be oh so good to be able to just fall asleep next to him and see him when I wake up. Cutsey I know but it's true. I really fell hard for this guy, but I don't care. Finally someone that I can see myself being with.